Post by AngelAficionado on Nov 24, 2005 11:26:18 GMT -5
Dear Hadley
I think for a while now I've been suffering from some kind of exhaustion, but it kind of really hit home last night.
I went to London on a Drama trip, getting up at around 6:30 to make sure I was at the train station on time. The night before, I had just finished my big devised Drama performance, which I had been preparing for for months in advance, staying up late to write scripts, do research, learn lines, so I was tapped out. Now, when I arrived in London, I felt fine, I went on a tour of the Theatre Royal and felt fine, but as the day progressed, I could feel myself becoming more and more exhausted.
Toward around 2:30pm I went to see Kevin Spacey in "Richard II" which is something I had really been looking forward to, but as soon as the lights went down, I was struggling to keep myself awake. Like seriously, constantly snapping myself out of sleep.
Anyway, I continued doing so for about 3 and a half hours (it was a LONG play), until the very end, when as we left, we realised that the play had run long and we were going to miss our train. So we all hurtled down the streets of London, through the West End, trying to find the station. We get there, run up about 5 flights of stairs, through the terminals, and we were on the home stretch.
And that's when, as I was sprinting down the platform, I blacked out and collapsed. I came around pretty quickly after, and I passed it off as my knee buckling beneath me. But it kind of has me worried. One thing I shouldn't be doing is collapsing while running at speed, since, as I found out, it leaves you with all kind of nice things, like cuts and bruises. I don't know what to do, and I feel like....inferior in some ways.
I mean, I'm not sure everyone took the work as seriously as I do for Drama, but if they're all managing to keep the same hours I am, and stay awake, then what's wrong with me?
I feel like I'm burning the candle at both ends, which I know is bad, but I have no other option. I'm constantly trying to keep on top of everything, and maintain a healthy life outside school, but it's just taking it's toll on me.
And one added pressure now, is that I'm being constantly hassled to get a job, so I can start earning my own money, but I feel like if I do that, I just won't be able to cope at all.
Again though, what's bugging me is, if everyone else is doing this, juggling work, social lives and school, and managing not to suffer a collapse, then what's up with me?
Anyways, I hope this isn't too whiny or anything, I just don't know who else to talk to, as I don't want to tell my friends or anything.
-James
I think for a while now I've been suffering from some kind of exhaustion, but it kind of really hit home last night.
I went to London on a Drama trip, getting up at around 6:30 to make sure I was at the train station on time. The night before, I had just finished my big devised Drama performance, which I had been preparing for for months in advance, staying up late to write scripts, do research, learn lines, so I was tapped out. Now, when I arrived in London, I felt fine, I went on a tour of the Theatre Royal and felt fine, but as the day progressed, I could feel myself becoming more and more exhausted.
Toward around 2:30pm I went to see Kevin Spacey in "Richard II" which is something I had really been looking forward to, but as soon as the lights went down, I was struggling to keep myself awake. Like seriously, constantly snapping myself out of sleep.
Anyway, I continued doing so for about 3 and a half hours (it was a LONG play), until the very end, when as we left, we realised that the play had run long and we were going to miss our train. So we all hurtled down the streets of London, through the West End, trying to find the station. We get there, run up about 5 flights of stairs, through the terminals, and we were on the home stretch.
And that's when, as I was sprinting down the platform, I blacked out and collapsed. I came around pretty quickly after, and I passed it off as my knee buckling beneath me. But it kind of has me worried. One thing I shouldn't be doing is collapsing while running at speed, since, as I found out, it leaves you with all kind of nice things, like cuts and bruises. I don't know what to do, and I feel like....inferior in some ways.
I mean, I'm not sure everyone took the work as seriously as I do for Drama, but if they're all managing to keep the same hours I am, and stay awake, then what's wrong with me?
I feel like I'm burning the candle at both ends, which I know is bad, but I have no other option. I'm constantly trying to keep on top of everything, and maintain a healthy life outside school, but it's just taking it's toll on me.
And one added pressure now, is that I'm being constantly hassled to get a job, so I can start earning my own money, but I feel like if I do that, I just won't be able to cope at all.
Again though, what's bugging me is, if everyone else is doing this, juggling work, social lives and school, and managing not to suffer a collapse, then what's up with me?
Anyways, I hope this isn't too whiny or anything, I just don't know who else to talk to, as I don't want to tell my friends or anything.
-James